I feel sad. And I don't even know why. And my font is grey bcos thats how i feel, gloomy like the weather tadi. Maybe because I just cut my hair ? Hmms. Today even before Ms Ross arrived for Drama, I was already feeling sad. Like downnnnn to the max rabak giler. Idk uh.. I realized I'm always surrounded with ppl, so many ppl, but no matter how close they were to me, I somehow felt that they were distant now. Maybe because its the hols ? But I still see my friends almost everyday pe. I just didn't feel the ease and happiness which I used to when I was around my best friends. They're always there but somehow nowadays it feels so freaking hard, like as if I couldn't pour out everything & relax. And its not as if we had any conflicts seyh. Maybe I'm just PMS-ing. Anw while Aida & Syaf were dancing to some Korean thingy before Ms Ross came, I took out my hp & remembered that I hadn't replied to Imen, so I msged her, then she called. I went outside the room to talk to Imen otp & idk why but I suddenly felt super emotional & broke down like 3 times. Lagi2 Imen said "Don't cry Ella", which is the last thing someone should say if I'm on the verge of crying, hahas. But I felt a little better afterwards. Hmms.
This sucks seyh. I hv nth to think abt since sch is over. Syaf & Aida always has smthg Korean to think abt or to look forward to.. Imen always has err, smthg to think abt, heh, whereas I hv nth I'm crazy abt right now. I feel so empty gitu. Haizz. Today's the first time in my entire life that I ever said this.. I hate my life.
Ahh damn it, I should stop all this emo crap. Just making me feel more down seyh.
Oh yay my kawan online ! Can cheer me up :D byeee.















